Lullaby Lost

She said, 

He was never mine, 

but he was only ever mine. 

I never knew a life lived with him, 

but I can't imagine a life without him. 

I cannot tell you what he looks like, 

but I will search every crowd 

for the rest of my life, 

looking for his face. 

She said,

He was never here,

but everything here 

reminds me of him. 

Each smell, every song, all the 

people I meet-

He is everywhere and nowhere.

Everything and 

nothing. 

She said,

When you lose something 

you never had, 

you don't even get to keep 

the memories.